Old habits have to die. The new you doesn’t hang with the old you. I know this as truth, but I still find myself asking God why I tend to retreat to my old way of life even after God brought me out of it. When you overcome bad habits or find victory over addiction, you feel like you can conquer the world. You can. But the reality is that it’s not you doing the conquering, it’s God in you. If we can’t wrap our heads around this, then through time we’ll lose our spiritual momentum and end up right back in the same old habits.
I’ve always been weirded out by the Bible’s analogy of us being sheep and God being our shepherd. Sheep are dumb, directionless and defenseless. If one sheep jumped off a bridge, the rest would follow. I take offense, God. Why can’t I be a wolf or a dragon? But this isn’t about us being dumb or defenseless, it’s about our human nature - our need for a protector, a provider, and a healer.
Psalm 23:2-3 says, "He makes me lie down in green pastures; He LEADS me beside quiet waters. He RESTORES my soul; He GUIDES me in the paths of righteousness For His name's sake."
I found that as soon as I stopped trying to be a good sheep and started relying on my good Shepherd, overcoming my addictions became easy-peasy. This is because God shows us the root of our problems. Are you addicted to porn? Stop trying to not watch it and start asking God for the reason you even want to watch it in the first place. Then, you address the root. Stuck in a harmful relationship? Stop using your own judgment and start asking God why you feel so tied to someone who is hurting you. Then, address the root.
He’s always ready to lead us, restore us, and guide us in tangible ways. Today is a good day for a good day. - Sam